Many of you know that I shaved off my hair in the Summer of 2013 after finally getting the courage to do so (something I’ve wanted to do for years but never allowed myself to do). Well, within the last month, I found myself missing longer hair. I have seen such beautiful, longer natural hairstyles and… I wanted one. I even toyed with the idea of growing it out in order to get one of the many styles I’ve seen.

Now one of the main reasons I cut my hair is because I do not like hair upkeep. My hair is extremely thick and tangles easily. It would take me hours to do my hair. When my hair was short-medium length it would take me two hours. When it was past my chin and shoulders, it took at least four hours. And getting those beautiful flat-twist up-dos that I love so much was always painful. So if I grow my hair out, what exactly will be different? And if I get a new wig, how will a short haired wig get me that longer style I so covet since I don’t actually want a long haired wig? It makes no sense. None of it does and I know it.

The grass is always greener. That’s a phrase most of us are so familiar with. And that’s what I’m experiencing. It would be so wonderful to be able to do so many things with my hair. And yet when I had the length it pained me physically and mentally to do anything with my hair. I’ve had to shake my head and wag my finger at myself.

Instead of me being content in this space, and being appreciative of what I have – because it’s what I know I wanted, I’m looking backward. I’m also looking in other people’s yard. However, the more I seek contentment in my own state of being and appreciation for where I am in this new look, the less green another person’s yard will be to me. In reality, their grass is just as green as mine, not greener. It’s all just green.

The more I think about it, the more I know I need a privacy screen for my yard so I won’t peek over my own fence. No more snooping. I’m tending to my own stuff going forward, short hair and all.

I’m relating this topic to my hair, but it’s something that has resonated in other areas of my life in the past too, prompting me to reflect on the many ways I have not always been grounded and comfortable in my sense of self and where I’ve been divinely led.  And I’m sure I’m not alone.

Do you find yourself looking at some part of another person’s life, comparing it to your own?
Have you had trouble lately being content with where you are in life and with the decisions you’ve made?
Do you struggle with appreciating aspects of your own life (and self)?

Let us know below!